I love playing video games -- well, many video games, not all (cough, Gears of War, cough) -- but I tend to take them personally. I consider it a personal achievement when I beat a boss. Like, I am a better person for it. And if I fail, I fail at life.
My first video games that I remember were Mario Bros for NES, Link's Awakening and Donkey Kong for the original Gameboy, and then for computer, Commander Keen and original Duke Nukem.
I once peed in my pants because I refused to get up from fighting the boss in Duke Nukem to go to the bathroom. There was no pause!
I remember beating Twilight Princess (a Legend of Zelda game) around 3 a.m. one weekend many years ago and yelling in triumph! You really shouldn't yell at 3 a.m. when you're not the only person in the house.
I play League of Legends, but never solo queue (when you just jump into a random game with other people you don't know). I only play premades, and usually that consists of four family members plus me. Occasionally we'll play with friends instead, but I refuse to play with more than one or maaaaaybe two strangers. Here's why.
A few years ago I got the idea to solo queue in a 3 vs. 3 game of League of Legends. I was trying out a character I hadn't played much. I got matched with two teammates and the game started. I didn't think I did horribly, but obviously being new to the character I wasn't awesome. One of my teammates disagreed. In game, you can chat with others in the game by typing in a chat area that's visible to all 6 players. He said something about my sucking at the game and being horrible, blah blah blah.
I was already super nervous about playing solo queue, so this pushed me over the edge. I'm a sensitive person and take things way too personally, so his dumb comments plus my anxiety made me so angry, and then I called him something I shouldn't have in chat and logged off in true temper tantrum style.
And then I felt bad for saying what I had said because honestly, the player was probably a 10 year old kid.
So here I am, anxious, angry, crying, guilt-ridden: a complete mess. A 20-something woman emotionally torn asunder by a child. Jeremy was just staring at me and, I'm sure, trying not to laugh.
It was laugh worthy.
And this, friends, is why I don't solo queue anymore.
My first video games that I remember were Mario Bros for NES, Link's Awakening and Donkey Kong for the original Gameboy, and then for computer, Commander Keen and original Duke Nukem.I once peed in my pants because I refused to get up from fighting the boss in Duke Nukem to go to the bathroom. There was no pause!
I remember beating Twilight Princess (a Legend of Zelda game) around 3 a.m. one weekend many years ago and yelling in triumph! You really shouldn't yell at 3 a.m. when you're not the only person in the house.
I play League of Legends, but never solo queue (when you just jump into a random game with other people you don't know). I only play premades, and usually that consists of four family members plus me. Occasionally we'll play with friends instead, but I refuse to play with more than one or maaaaaybe two strangers. Here's why.
A few years ago I got the idea to solo queue in a 3 vs. 3 game of League of Legends. I was trying out a character I hadn't played much. I got matched with two teammates and the game started. I didn't think I did horribly, but obviously being new to the character I wasn't awesome. One of my teammates disagreed. In game, you can chat with others in the game by typing in a chat area that's visible to all 6 players. He said something about my sucking at the game and being horrible, blah blah blah.
And then I felt bad for saying what I had said because honestly, the player was probably a 10 year old kid.
So here I am, anxious, angry, crying, guilt-ridden: a complete mess. A 20-something woman emotionally torn asunder by a child. Jeremy was just staring at me and, I'm sure, trying not to laugh.
It was laugh worthy.
And this, friends, is why I don't solo queue anymore.
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